Unpublished Work © 2011 Cristina Carlino
You read that right, my friends. That’s my tiny doing this week toward what I believe may lead me to my 2012 transformation. My nature was always to keep moving, jump up and run out. Every “to do” on my list was dispatched through 9ll. “If I don’t do it, who will?” Have you ever gotten that collect call from your head before? Or dashed into action when you had an uncomfortable feeling?
When I was younger, If I felt angry, I got Looney Tunes animated. If I was afraid I had not pleased somebody, I’d go off on a double barrel pleasing jag. Too many feelings made me want to crawl out of my own skin. And sometimes still can. So this week, I aspire to crawl and twist and turn into my skin like the caterpillar -straight into my own personal cocoon. To be still, let nature take its course and not fear I won’t come out on the other side – a butterfly.
“Within you there is a stillness and a sanctuary to which you can retreat at any time and be yourself.” How true that quote from the great Hermann Hesse. Even for most of us who with busy lives seem to have so little time left for ourselves. Much happens in the dark, in the stillness and in the inaction that gives us peace and that, in its own mysterious ways, changes us in ways we cannot see.
I have come to believe that we all need cocooning. Ways and means to rest ourselves. Winter helps remind us of that. A big fat cold can help us rally into a little r and r even as we are kicking and sneezing our way to submission. Like the caterpillar, our cocoon is where we are safe but it is not required that we be sick or miserable to get there.
Over many years you may have seen me on TV as a beauty expert talking about solutions to put onto your skin. Now here’s my personal regimen for crawling into your skin. And I’d love to hear yours, too!
Cocoon, cocoon, Repeat as Needed
- First for me the key is absolute silence. No phones, movies, music, nothing. (easiest to do when the rest of the family is out of the house)
- Dim the lights. I have learned to not be afraid of the dark outside as well as the dark I may first hear rumbling from my own thoughts.
- Get the big old blanket, robe or okay, if you must a “Snuggie.” But I like a blanket best.
- Must wear socks. Preferably fluffy.
- Next go into the caterpillar position. In yoga, that is a more advanced position. Since I can’t do it, I think of my caterpillar as the curled up/somewhat fetal position.
- As I close my eyes, I breathe deep.
- I try to remember that in that instant I am loved. All is well.
- I wait to relax and let my body somehow remind me that in doing nothing a metamorphosis is in motion. Unlike the butterfly, it won’t be a complete physical transformation, but I will evolve in my own spiritual metamorphosis.
- I am being guided. I am being.
- And then just ask for one simple thing. Over and over again.
Whatever that is for you. This week will I will ask for grace, grace and more grace. Even more grace than I can imagine.
How about you?
With grace and gratitude,